Those stars
Those stars.....
" I want to see you wearing those stars" these were her last words for me.
Few years back when I was in last semester of my college,I met a girl online. A beautiful, bubbly, happy go lucky type of a girl hailing from the land of beautiful mountains (uttrakhand).
after sometime as the attachment towards her was getting deeper and I know the fact that destiny would never let us unite. So I decided to just escape from facing her anymore.
but every single day I was falling for her even more.Her tantrums,her useless talks,all her dramas to seek attention; I started missing all that!
Destiny played it's game, eventually we both confused our love for each other but the fear what fact
Might being to us always kept us a distance apart.
I got recommended for IMA,it was a dream to serve my motherland. A perfect Life one can imagine. And I was actually living it. Academy life is quite a little difficult as you all might be very well aware.
It was a difficult phase of our relationship still we decided to hold on,she said she would wait for me no matter what. it was my second term break when she told me
Her family had fixed her engagement next week. For a moment I was freezed, I didn't know what to do! I belong to Army background,it was nearly impossible for me as well to convince my family to accept our relationship.
she asked me to meet her parents and atleast try to convince them, but I was bounded inside my own domains. i was supposed to join academy after few days . eloping was not at all an option ; finally I decided it was to best to move on.
She was devastated as she expected me to take a stand for our love but I couldn't. One last time before going to academy I called her; she replied
"I didn't expected you to be this coward fauji sahab, you are being trained to fight for your motherland but can't you fight for your love? Anyways my best wishes are always with you, work hard I want to see you wearing those stars"
And the phone was disconnected. After listening to this, I actually
Didn't had the courage to even call back. Then a total cut off from both sides.
Month passed,on the ball night I recognised a girl, she was her classmate. I tried to communicate to know her well being ,she gave me wired looks so I just stepped back. That kind of resentment was obviously natural.
I got commissioned, my family was really happy. I wanted to contact her but no means to do so, I was hoping I might get a call on my birthday atleast and the day went just waiting for that one call.i became so desperate from that day.i contacted her friends, nobody was ready to talk.finally took my first leave, went to her college inquired from some of her juniors and got to know
She was victimized by a landslide that occurred in her home town and she no more.
The numberness I had after knowing about the incident is still there inside me .why I left her? Why couldn't I take a stand for us? Is this a punishment for me? So many questions still unanswered. I loved her so much. i still loved her so much.
I was confused one wrong decision and I collected a lifetime regret.
Now look at the imony of the situation, seeing my condition these days, how I die everyday living without her, living with the only regret I have in my life , my parents are ready to trade anything in exchange of my happiness.
I do have stars on my shoulders but she is not here to see it Through I will try my best not to fail in performing my duties towards my motherland yet this tag of being a "COWARD" has sticked to my soul.
Please don't give up on love. if you find true love don't give up.
Vani
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Punam verma
21-Jun-2023 08:16 AM
Very nice
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Abhinav ji
20-Jun-2023 08:38 AM
Very nice 👍
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Niraj Pandey
19-Jun-2023 12:15 AM
Awesome one👌
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