Another morning I wake up to my mother screaming. Oh my gosh what now?

"Cassie!!'' I look over at my alarm clock and realize that it is 4:00 in the morning. What in the hell is so important that this woman has to wake me up this early. The house better be on fire, or flooded or something, because this is too damn early!

"What!" i yelled back at her. My mom ran into my room looking like she just stepped out of a victoria secret catalog. What the fuck? "Wow mom you literally look like shit right now." She snicked and frowned.

"Brent bought it for me so shut up."

"no wonder..."

"well what do you think?" She asked.

"I think I already voiced my opinion, so can i go back to sleep...by the way, that was very rude to wake me up for something pointless..."

"Its not pointless...Brent could be your new daddy..."

"Why...because he bought you some lingerie?", I asked, "He will never be MY daddy...you are the only one who is going to be calling him daddy anyway.."

"Have some respect Kitty, I'm trying"

"To what?" I asked.

"Be a better mother."

"To late...can I sleep now?" My mom shook her head and left the room. Well what did she expect. After all those years of torture she has put me through she finally wants to be nice...I'll always forgive her but i will never forget my past with her.

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Later when I woke up around 10:30, I realized I had a text from Colten...I'm seriously getting tired of him but then again im not. The text read...

*meet me outside*

*Again I am barely presentable* I sent back.

*Again, neither am I, just please dont be wearing that gay shit again.*

*Spongebob is not gay!!!* i exclaimed in my text

*like i said he runs around yelling iiiimmmm ready and he plays with that pink thing all the time...believe me when i say spongebob is into some straight up gay-homo-shit*

*Whatever asshole, i'll be out in a minute and NO it is not spongebob.....its scooby doo*

*he's no better...that pussy.* I left it at that...if hes going to make fun of every set of pajamas i have, then there is no sense in arguing. Instead i grabbed my robe and headed out the door. Just as i predicted, Colten was standing by that damn car that i am so jealous of.

"And you talk about my pajamas...." I mumbled.

"Whatever, so what you doing today?" He asked.

"Im grounded remember..."

"Ha! oh yeah!" He started laughing and that just made me even more angry.

"Its your fucking fault im grounded so stop laughing!"

"Its not my damn fault you snuck out when you were suppose to be at home!"

"Yes it is!!! You wouldnt leave me the fuck alone until i did...thats the last time i do anything for you again!" I dont know what it is but we always seem to end up arguing. What a horrible way to start the morning.

"Colten!?" I heard Michaels voice and my face lit up. Michael ran up to Colten and handed him his cell phone. "hey Cassie, whats up?....nice...pjs" He chuckled.

"Do you have a problem with scooby doo like your punk ass brother." Colten had walked away from us to answer a phone call.

"No i dont actually i think its cute, especially on you Cassie." I looked away from Michael...That made me somewhat....blush.

"Um thank you Michael, you sure are much nicer than your big headed snotty nosed brother. Whats his issue with me anyway?" Michael laughed at me and pulled me into a tight hug.

"If i told you the truth, Colten would ring my head. What i can tell you is, there is some feeling involved and if you could possibly get him to confront those deep, deep, deep, deep feelings then you will know what i know without any of us having to live with the constant bickering he can give."

"Feelings?" i asked, not really expecting an answer.

"Dont ask what i mean, but if you happen to not feel the same way....call me okay?"

"Okay...i guess." Michael let me out of the tight hug he put me in and winked at me before walking off. Colten was still on the phone when Michael left, which i was grateful for because it gave me time to think. Michael said that Coltens issues with me had to do with something he was feeling. Does he honestly like me or something? He also said if i didnt feel the same way to call him. I am definitely going to question Colten about this because as obvious as Michael made it, I still want to be sure about it. Colten walked up to me with an ominous expression.

"What were you and Michael talking about...and when did you two began getting so damn close."

"Do you like me Colten?" I just came right out and said it.

"Did Michael tell you that i did?"

"No he wouldnt tell me"

"I thought i already told you that i liked you, you didnt believe me remember."

"Yeah but i didnt think that you were actually serious...you do joke a lot from what i recall." I stated bitterly.

"Well I wouldn't joke about anything like that"

"How would i know?"

"Well I just figure you knew me well enough to tell if I were serious or not"

"I havent known you very long Colton."

"Well now you know that I'm serious so where do we go from here Cassie?" He asked me. To tell you the truth i honestly didnt know what to say or do for that matter. This comes as a big surprise to me. To know that this mean, ignorant, egotistical, jerk wants to be with me. Actually all that i just said about him makes me rethink even the smallest feelings i might have for someone like him.

"I dont know..." I paused. "What do you think?"

"Well me....it's not what I think.....it's that I like you"

"What do you think we should do about that?"

"Before WE can do anything about this....you have to decide whether you like me first before we can go any further"

"Honestly....at this moment im confused because for the last few days we've hated each other exclusively and i just cant go from hating someone that easily to liking someone...and truthfully, i would date Michael before i ever date you, I dont care if you look better than him. He just has a better personality. More open and friendly, you know."

"I never hated you, I just treat you that way because I'm attracted to you and I don't know how to express my real feeling and really if thats the way you feel then I guess I'm just wasting my time"

"I wouldnt say that much...I mean you're definitely not wasting your time because i do know for a fact that somewhere...deep...deep...very deep down in me, there is some strong feelings for you."

"But more feeling for Michael"

"No, i didnt say those exact words."

"But that is basically what you are saying here, how about we just stop beating around the bush"

"How about i go back into my house, and you go back into yours and we pretend this conversation never happened and i see you next week for school? Does that sound like a plan or do you have anything else you want to talk about before i completely forget what we talked about."

"Im fine with this idea"

"Okay...fine...Im fine with it too."

"Okay...bye Cassie"

"Bye..." I turned to go toward my house, i know i wasnt even suppose to leave the house today, even to go outside but i guess deep down i wanted to see him. Guess not anymore. Well at least we finally got all that out in open air. Better then having it bottled up right? Im still not sure i understand what happened just a few minutes ago, but its just the morning, im sure he'll text me later with some smart ass comments.

Colten didn't text me. I tried to pass it off as being busy. Usually after an argument and break point like that, he would have text me to cool things off with some type of humor. Not that I care or anything.

Five hours had past since him and I spoke this morning. Now it was around noon and i wanted to relax and go to the pool in town. Surely, everybody is going to be there today.

I made it my business to dress up in my cute little lavender bikini and American eagle wedged heals. I kept my hair curly and pinned up this morning because i didnt feel like straightening it. Placing a white flower in my hair, i grabbed my tote bag, beach towel, and ipod and left the house. Hopefully my mother wouldnt notice.

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I arrived at the Community pool and gladly enough it was jam packed. I glanced around to see if any of my friends were here. Candice, Whitney, Jayda, Snow, Tiffany, and Mariah were all sitting at the west end of the pool laughing and staring at the group of guys adjacent to them. With no surprise, one of the guys were Michael. I made it my business to walk over to him and say hi.

"Hey Cassie!" Michael exclaimed.

"Where's your brother?"

"He didn’t want to come. He said he had better things to do than sit at a poolside being stared at by girls."

"Just like him to think that."

“What happen between you two? He’s been bitching all morning and when I say bitching I mean bitching. Colten yelled at me for leaving the shower on so the water can get hot and he know damn well he does the exact same thing.”

“Your brother just has issues”

“I wouldn’t say that exactly. You got to understand it from Coltens point of view. Love and woman weren’t his best area of interest. Now, woman and sex? Oh yeah Colten has that down packed. You got to give him a little time. I can tell the dude has fallen for you or whatever.”

“Why is it always the wierdos that like me?”

“I wouldn’t say I was weird.” Colten said scaring the crap out of me when he walked up behind me.

“I thought you weren’t coming bro.”

“Yeah me too.” I said, immediately trying to catch my breath.

“Well I saw this hot chick walking out of her house in a bikini and some shorts and I just had to come make sure she behaves herself.”

“What are you? My sitter?!” I yelled.

“Nope.” I was so mad, I didn’t even know what to say. Colten is such a jackass its like no way to explain how he got that way. His dad is so kind and his mom is very gentle, how did he end up a jackass. They seem like the ideal parents that I would die for.

“Whatever.” I replied half-halfheartedly.

“Whats wrong? You afraid im going to cock block?”

“As if that is possible, everyone knows I wouldn’t give anybody like you the time of day.”

“Is that so?” 

“Yes that is actually very so”

“you never say that when im kissing you”

“That’s because you never give me the option of whether I want to kiss you or not!”

I damn near yelled, slightly drawing attention to myself. 

“Why you gotta be like that Cass.”

“Cass?” Colten gave me that cute little side grin and snickered.

“Yeah that’s what im going to start calling you for short, I think its cute.”

“what the fuck do I look like? My mom doesn’t even call me Cass!”

“Cassidy calm down.”

"fine, dont speak to me Colten, okay. Dont ruin yet another day of my life."

"yes ma'am!.' he stated sarcastically. "i must apologize for my rudeness even though i did nothing wrong here today." He grinned as this thin girl in a bathing suit with her bleached hair walked by. "i will just be on my way so you can continue to enjoy the rest of your day. I got better things to look at anyway."

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I could not enjoy my time at the pool. The entire time i was there my eyes and the majority of my attention was focused on Colten and some big breasted bimbo. It was obvious she was really into him and it seemed as if they exchanged numbers. Without really thinking about it, i stood up and made my way over to the walking sex tape in the making.

"Yes?"

"Can i talk to you?"

"I'm a little occupied at the moment."

"With?" i asked sarcastically. The girl, probably 5"8" coughed under her breath.

"Danielle and i were about to go back to my place." He winked at her as she giggled.

"Im sure you were." my voice now uninterested. "it will just take a moment." I pulled Colten to the side...just a few feet away from Danielle.

"What the fuck are you doing."

"Im doing, what i do."

"are you just doing this to get back at me?"

"do be so full of yourself. She's just a quick smash. I will get back to you later." He turned back to Danielle.

"Wait!"

"What?"

"what do you mean."

"At. This. Moment. I. Am. Trying. To. Smash. A. Really. Hot. Girl."

"But what about..."

"Not important..."

Okay that hurt. I will admit that much. Why is he doing this. Why does it get to me so much...I need so much help!