Death! One of the biggest fear in our life. Being a child, I was so scared of dead bodies. I didn't even want to watch the sight of it. I grew up with this fear, avoiding funerals of closed ones. I was just 13 years old, it was around the year 2012, when I heard that my maternal grandmother passed away. I loved her so much, and inspite of spending my whole childhood at her house, I denied to attend her funeral. Still, my father took me to her funeral, thinking what society will think about me. After attending her funeral, I couldn't sleep for 3 days. I would get nightmares at night. Once, my father told me, "For how many years you will run away from this deaths/ funerals? One day there will be a situation, where you will have to face it. No matter what happens, you won't be able to escape this situation." I thought about it for a while, and later ignored it. 

It was starting week of July, where I started finding things out of the box. And, one night I got some powerful negative vibes. I held my mother's hands and slept, found her touch as a comfort zone of my life. I slept peacefully, as if I was awake from many days. Next morning, I got up as a regular routine. Laziness became my shadow, due to which I didn't feel like doing anything. I took a round and came back. I found something weird. I saw my mom was sleeping calmly and peacefully, otherwise which she wouldn't be so silent. I couldn't hear her snores anymore. I tired to waking her. There was no response at all. I started getting nervous, I started screaming and tried hard to wake her up. Again, it was useless doing that. Hearing my voice my brother woke up, he pulled her with full force, and body had already turned cold. With no softness left within. Her cheeks had blood. That time, I wasn't even scared. I was anxious. I had fallen weak within, not because I was scared of her body. But, I couldn't bear truth of witnessing death from so close. This time I wasn't scared of death, I was scared of life. I was scared for how long I will survive. For some death has been slow, and for some it is unexpected and sudden. 

Once it was my fear, but now witnessing it closely, everything disappeared away. I was with her whole day, until she was creamated. It's true, we cannot avoid anything in life. Not even the worst nightmares. Everyone was talking behind my backs, taking my actions as bravery. I never knew, which was once my fear would turn out to be so near to me. No matter how many ways we avoid to travel our journey on it. Still, life will make us travel in every phase of life and death. For some it's early, for some it's later. But, it will happen someday for sure. That's why we never know what's will happen futher in our life. We should be prepared for every blowing wind in our lives. 

Jy